SOME PASSAGES OF THE LIFE AND DEATH OF JOHN EARL OF ROCHESTER
(BURNETROC-E3-H,1.3)
John Wilmot Earl of Rochester was born in
April , Anno Dom. 1648 . (BURNETROC-E3-H,1.5)
his father was Henry Earl of Rochester ,
but best known by the Title of the Lord Wilmot ,
who bore so great a part in all the late Wars , that mention is often
made of him in the History : And had the chief share in the Honour of
the preservation of His Majesty that now Reigns , after
Worcester -Fight , and the Conveying Him from Place to Place ,
till he happily escaped into France :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,2.6)
But dying before the King's Return , he left his Son little other
Inheritance , but the Honour and Title derived to him , with the
pretensions such eminent Services gave him to the King's Favour :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,2.7)
These were carefully managed by the great prudence and discretion of
his Mother , a Daughter of that Noble and ancient Family of the
St. Johns of Wiltshire , so that his Education
was carried on all things sutably to his Quality .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,3.8)
When he was at School he was an extraordinary Proficient at his Book :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,3.9)
and those shining parts , which have since appeared with so much lustre
; began then to shew themselves : (BURNETROC-E3-H,3.10)
He acquired the Latin to such perfection , that to his
dying-day he retained a great rellish of the fineness and Beauty of
that Tongue : and was exactly versed in the incomparable Authors that
writ about Augustus's time , whom he read often with
that peculiar delight which the greatest Wits have ever found in those
Studies . (BURNETROC-E3-H,3.11)
When he went to the University the general Joy which
over-ran the whole Nation upon his Majesties Restauration
, but was not regulated with that Sobriety and Temperance
, that became a serious gratitude to God for so great a Blessing ,
produced some of its ill effects on him : (BURNETROC-E3-H,4.12)
He began to love these disorders too much ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,4.13)
His Tutor was that Eminent and Pious Divine Dr. Blandford
, afterwards promoted to the Sees of Oxford and
Worcester : (BURNETROC-E3-H,4.14)
And under his Inspection , he was committed to the more immediate care
of Mr. Phineas Berry , a Fellow of Wadham
-Colledge , a very learned and good natured man ; whom he afterwards
ever used with much respect , and rewarded him as became a great man .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,4.15)
But the humour of that time wrought so much on him , that he broke off
the Course of his Studies ; to which no means could ever
effectually recall him ; till when he was in Italy his
Governor , Dr. Balfour , a learned and worthy man , now
a Celebrated Physitian in Scotland , his Native Country
; drew him to read such Books , as were most likely to bring him back
to love Learning and Study : (BURNETROC-E3-H,5.16)
and he often acknowledged to me , in particular three days before his
Death , how much he was obliged to Love and Honour this his Governour ,
to whom he thought he owed more than to all the World , next after his
Parents , for his great Fidelity and Care of him , while he was under
his trust . (BURNETROC-E3-H,5.17)
But no part of it affected him more sensibly , than that he engaged him
by many tricks so he expressed it to delight in
Books and reading ; So that ever after he took occasion in the
Intervals of those woful Extravagancies that consumed most of his time
to read much : (BURNETROC-E3-H,6.18)
and though the time was generally but indifferently employed , for the
choice of the Subjects of his Studies was not always good , yet the
habitual Love of Knowledge together with these fits of study , had much
awakened his Understanding , (BURNETROC-E3-H,6.19)
and prepared him for better things , when his mind should be so far
changed as to rellish them . (BURNETROC-E3-H,6.20)
He came from his Travels in the 18th Year of his {HELSINKI:his_his} Age
, (BURNETROC-E3-H,6.21)
and appeared at Court with as great Advantages as most ever had .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,6.22)
He was a Graceful and well shaped Person , tall and well made ,
if not a little too slender : (BURNETROC-E3-H,7.23)
He was exactly well bred , (BURNETROC-E3-H,7.24)
and what by a modest behaviour natural to him , what by a Civility
become almost as natural , his Conversation was easie and obliging .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,7.25)
He had a strange Vivacity of thought , and vigour of expression :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,7.26)
His Wit had a subtility and sublimity both , that were scarce imitable
. (BURNETROC-E3-H,7.27)
His Style was clear and strong : (BURNETROC-E3-H,7.28)
When he used Figures they were very lively , and yet far enough out of
the Common Road : (BURNETROC-E3-H,7.29)
he had made himself Master of the Ancient and Modern Wit , and of the
Modern French and Italian as well as the
English . (BURNETROC-E3-H,7.30)
He loved to talk and write of Speculative Matters ,
(BURNETROC-E3-H,7.31)
and did it with so fine a thread , that even those who hated the
Subjects that his Fancy ran upon , yet could not but be charmed
with his way of treating them . (BURNETROC-E3-H,8.32)
Boileau among the French , and
Cowley among the English Wits , were those he
admired most . (BURNETROC-E3-H,8.33)
Sometimes other mens thoughts mixed with his Composures ,
(BURNETROC-E3-H,8.34)
but that flowed rather from the Impressions they made on him when he
read them , by which they came to return upon him as his own thoughts ;
than that he servilely copied from any . (BURNETROC-E3-H,8.35)
For few men ever had a bolder flight of fancy , more steddily governed
by Judgment than he had . (BURNETROC-E3-H,8.36)
No wonder a young man so made , and so improved was very acceptable in
a Court . (BURNETROC-E3-H,8.37)
Soon after his coming thither he laid hold on the first Occasion that
offered to shew his readiness to hazard his life in the Defence
and Service of his Country . (BURNETROC-E3-H,9.38)
In Winter 1665 . he went with the Earl of
Sandwich to Sea , when he was sent to lie for the Dutch
East-India Fleet ; and was in the Revenge ,
Commanded by Sir Thomas Tiddiman , when the Attack was
made on the Port of Bergen in Norway ,
the Dutch ships having got into that Port
. (BURNETROC-E3-H,9.39)
It was as desperate an Attempt as ever was made : (BURNETROC-E3-H,9.40)
during the whole Action , the Earl of Rochester shewed
as brave and as resolute a Courage as was possible :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,9.41)
a Person of Honour told me he heard the Lord Clifford ,
who was in the same Ship , often magnifie his Courage at that time very
highly . (BURNETROC-E3-H,9.42)
Nor did the Rigours of the Season , the hardness of the Voyage ,
and the extream danger he had been in , deter him from running the like
on the very next Occasion ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,10.43)
For the Summer following he went to Sea again , without
communicating his design to his nearest Relations .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,10.44)
He went aboard the Ship Commanded by Sir Edward Spragge
the day before the great Sea-fight of that Year :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,10.45)
Almost all the Volunteers that were in the same Ship were killed .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,10.46)
Mr. Middleton brother to Sir Hugh
Middleton was shot in his Arms .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,10.47)
During the Action , Sir Edward Spragge , not being
satisfied with the behaviour of one of the Captains , could not easily
find a Person that would chearfully venture through so much danger , to
carry his Commands to that Captain . (BURNETROC-E3-H,11.48)
This Lord offered himself to the Service ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,11.49)
and went in a little Boat , through all the shot ,
(BURNETROC-E3-H,11.50)
and delivered his Message , (BURNETROC-E3-H,11.51)
and returned back to Sir Edward : which was much
commended by all that saw it . (BURNETROC-E3-H,11.52)
He thought it necessary to begin his life with these Demonstrations of
his Courage in an Element and way of fighting , which is acknowledged
to be the greatest trial of clear and undaunted Valour .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,11.53)
He had so entirely laid down the Intemperance that was growing on him
before his Travels , that at his Return he hated nothing more .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,11.54)
But falling into Company that loved these Excesses , he was , though
not without difficulty , and by many steps , brought back to it
again . (BURNETROC-E3-H,12.55)
And the natural heat of his fancy , being inflamed by Wine , made him
so extravagantly pleasant , that many to be more diverted by that humor
, studied to engage him deeper and deeper in Intemperance : which at
length did so entirely subdue him ; that , as he told me , for five
years together he was continually Drunk : (BURNETROC-E3-H,12.56)
not all the while under the visible effect of it ,
(BURNETROC-E3-H,12.57)
but his blood was so inflamed , that he was not in all that time cool
enough to be perfectly Master of himself . (BURNETROC-E3-H,12.58)
This led him to say and do many wild and unaccountable things :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,12.59)
By this , he said , he had broke the firm constitution of his Health ,
that seemed so strong , that nothing was too hard for it ;
(BURNETROC-E3-H,12.60)
and he had suffered so much in his Reputation , that he almost
dispaired to recover it . (BURNETROC-E3-H,13.61)
There were two Principles in his natural temper , that being heighten'd
by that heat carried him to great excesses : a violent love of Pleasure
, and a disposition to extravagant Mirth . (BURNETROC-E3-H,13.62)
The one involved him in great sensuality : (BURNETROC-E3-H,13.63)
the other led him to many odd Adventures and Frollicks , in which he
was oft in hazard of his life . The one being the same irregular
appetite in his Mind , that the other was in his Body , which made him
think nothing diverting that was not extravagant .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,13.64)
And though in cold blood he was a generous and good natured man , yet
he would go far in his heats , after any thing that might turn to a
Jest or matter of Diversion : (BURNETROC-E3-H,14.65)
He said to me , He never improved his Interest at Court , to do a
premeditate Mischief to other persons . (BURNETROC-E3-H,14.66)
Yet he laid out his Wit very freely in Libels and
Satyrs , in which he had a peculiar Talent of mixing his Wit
with his Malice , and fitting both with such apt words , that Men were
tempted to be pleased with them : (BURNETROC-E3-H,14.67)
from thence his Composures came to be easily known ,
(BURNETROC-E3-H,14.68)
for few had such a way of tempering these together as he had ; So that
when any thing extraordinary that way came out , as a Child is fathered
sometimes by its Resemblance , so was it laid at his Door as its Parent
and Author . (BURNETROC-E3-H,14.69)
These Exercises in the course of his life were not always
equally pleasant to him ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,15.70)
he had often sad Intervals and severe Reflections on them :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,15.71)
and though then he had not these awakened in him from any deep
Principle of Religion , yet the horrour that Nature raised in him ,
especially in some Sicknesses , made him too easie to receive some ill
Principles , which others endeavoured to possess him with ; so that he
was too soon brought to set himself to secure , and fortifie his Mind
against that , by dispossessing it all he could of the belief or
apprehensions of Religion . (BURNETROC-E3-H,15.72)
The Licentiousness of his temper , with the briskness of his Wit ,
disposed him to love the Conversation of those who divided their time
between lewd Actions and irregular Mirth .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,16.73)
And so he came to bend his Wit , and direct his Studies and Endeavours
to support and strengthen these ill Principles in himself and others .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,16.74)
An accident fell out after this , which confirmed him more in these
Courses : (BURNETROC-E3-H,16.75)
when he went to Sea in the Year 1665 , there happened to be in the same
Ship with him Mr. Mountague and another Gentleman of
Quality , (BURNETROC-E3-H,16.76)
these two , the former especially , seemed perswaded that they should
never return into England . (BURNETROC-E3-H,16.77)
Mr. Mountague said , He was sure of it :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,16.78)
the other was not so positive . (BURNETROC-E3-H,16.79)
The Earl of Rochester , and the last of these , entred
into a formal Engagement , not without Ceremonies of Religion , that if
either of them died , he should appear , and give the other
notice of the future State , if there was any . (BURNETROC-E3-H,17.80)
But Mr. Mountague would not enter into the Bond .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,17.81)
When the day came that they thought to have taken the Dutch
-Fleet in the Port of Bergen , Mr.
Mountague though he had such a strong Presage in his Mind of
his approaching death , yet he generously staid all the while in the
place of greatest danger : (BURNETROC-E3-H,17.82)
The other Gentleman signalized his Courage in a most undaunted manner ,
till near the end of the Action ; when he fell on a sudden into such a
trembling that he could scarce stand ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,17.83)
and Mr. Mountague going to him to hold him up , as they
were in each others Arms , a Cannon Ball killed him outright ,
(BURNETROC-E3-H,18.84)
and carried away Mr. Mountague's Belly , so that he died
within an hour after . (BURNETROC-E3-H,18.85)
The Earl of Rochester told me that these Presages they
had in their minds made some impression on him , that there were
separated Beings : and that the Soul , either-4 by a natural sagacity ,
or some secret Notice communicated to it , had a sort of Divination :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,18.86)
But that Gentlemans never appearing was a great snare to him , during
the rest of his life . Though when he told me this , he could not but
acknowledge , it was as unreasonable thing for him , to think , that
Beings in another State were not under such Laws and Limits , that they
could not command their own motions , but as the Supream Power
should order them : and that one who had so corrupted the Natural
Principles of Truth , as he had , had no reason to expect that such an
extraordinary thing should be done for his Conviction .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,19.87)
He told me of another odd Presage that one had of his approaching Death
in the Lady Warre , his Mother in Laws house :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,19.88)
The Chaplain had dream't that such a day he should die ,
(BURNETROC-E3-H,19.89)
but being by all the Family put out of the belief of it , he had almost
forgot it ; till the Evening before at Supper , there being Thirteen at
Table ; according to a fond conceit that one of these must soon die ,
One of the young Ladies pointed to him , that he was to die .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,20.90)
He remembering his Dream fell into some disorder (BURNETROC-E3-H,20.91)
and the Lady Warre reproving him for his Superstition ,
he said , He was confident he was to die before Morning ,
(BURNETROC-E3-H,20.92)
but he being in perfect health , it was not much minded .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,20.93)
It was Saturday -Night , (BURNETROC-E3-H,20.94)
and he was to Preach next day . (BURNETROC-E3-H,20.95)
He went to his Chamber (BURNETROC-E3-H,20.96)
and sate up late , as appeared by the burning of his Candle ,
(BURNETROC-E3-H,20.97)
and he had been preparing his Notes for his Sermon ,
(BURNETROC-E3-H,20.98)
but was found dead in his Bed the next Morning : (BURNETROC-E3-H,20.99)
These things he said made him inclined to believe , the Soul was a
substance distinct from matter : (BURNETROC-E3-H,20.100)
and this often returned into his thoughts . (BURNETROC-E3-H,20.101)
But that which perfected his perswasion about it , was , that in the
Sickness which brought him so near death before I first knew him
, when his Spirits were so low and spent , that he could not move nor
stir , and he did not think to live an hour ; He said , His Reason and
Judgment were so clear and strong , that from thence he was fully
perswaded that Death was not the spending or dissolution of the Soul ;
but only the separation of it from matter . (BURNETROC-E3-H,21.102)
He had in that Sickness great Remorses for his past Life ,
(BURNETROC-E3-H,21.103)
but he afterwards told me , They were rather general and dark Horrours
, than any Convictions of sinning against God . (BURNETROC-E3-H,21.104)
He was sorry he had lived so as to wast his strength so soon , or that
he had brought such an ill name upon himself , (BURNETROC-E3-H,21.105)
and had an Agony in his Mind about it , which he knew not well
how to express : (BURNETROC-E3-H,22.106)
But at such times , though he complied with his Friends in suffering
Divines to be sent for , he said , He had no great mind to it : and
that it was but a piece of his breeding , to desire them to pray by him
, in which he joyned little himself . (BURNETROC-E3-H,22.107)
As to the Supream Being , he had always some Impression of one :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,22.108)
and professed often to me , That he had never known an entire
Atheist , who fully believed there was no God .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,22.109)
Yet when he explained his Notion of this Being , it amounted to no more
than a vast power , that had none of the Attributes of Goodness or
Justice , we ascribe to the Deity : (BURNETROC-E3-H,22.110)
These were his thoughts about Religion , as himself told me .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,23.111)
For Morality , he freely own'd to me , that though he talked of it , as
a fine thing , yet this was only because he thought it a decent way of
speaking , and that as they went always in Cloaths , though in their
Frollicks they would have chosen sometimes to have gone naked , if they
had not feared the people : So though some of them found it necessary
for humane life to talk of Morality , yet he confessed they cared not
for it , further than the reputation of it was necessary for their
credit , and affairs : of which he gave me many Instances , as their
professing and swearing Friendship , where they hated mortally ; their
Oaths and Imprecations in their Addresses to Women , which they
intended never to make good ; the pleasure they took in defaming
innocent Persons , and spreading false Reports of some , perhaps in
Revenge , because they could not enage {COM:sic} them to comply with
their ill Designs : The delight they had in making people quarrel ;
their unjust usage of their Creditors , and putting them off by any
deceitful Promise they could invent , that might deliver them from
present Importunity . So that in detestation of these Courses he would
often break forth into such hard Expressions concerning himself as
would be indecent for another to repeat . (BURNETROC-E3-H,24.112)
Such had been his Principles and Practices in a Course of many years
which had almost quite extinguish't the natural Propensities in
him to Justice and Vertue : (BURNETROC-E3-H,25.113)
He would often go into the Country , and be for some months wholly
imployed in Study , or the Sallies of his Wit : Which he came to direct
chiefly to Satyre . (BURNETROC-E3-H,25.114)
And this he often defended to me ; by saying there were some people
that could not be kept in Order , or admonished but in this way .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,25.115)
I replied , That it might be granted that a grave way of Satyre
was sometimes no improfitable way of Reproof .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,25.116)
and Yet they who used it only out of spite , and mixed Lyes with Truth
, sparing nothing that might adorn their Poems , or
gratifie their Revenge , could not excuse that way of Reproach , by
which the Innocent often suffer : since the most malicious
things , if wittily expressed , might stick to and blemish the best men
in the World , and the malice of a Libel could hardly consist with the
Charity of an Admonition . (BURNETROC-E3-H,26.117)
To this he answered , A man could not write with life , unless he were
heated by Revenge : (BURNETROC-E3-H,26.118)
For to make a Satyre without Resentments , upon the cold
Notions of Phylosophy , was as if a man would in cold
blood , cut mens throats who had never offended him :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,26.119)
And he said , The Lyes in these Libels came ofen in as Ornaments that
could not be spared without spoiling the beauty of the Poem
. (BURNETROC-E3-H,26.120)
For his other Studies , they were divided between the Comical
and witty Writings of the Ancients and Moderns , the Roman
Authors , and Books of Physick : which the ill state of health
he was fallen into , made more necessary to himself : and which
qualifi'd him for an odd adventure , which I shall but just mention .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,27.121)
Being under an unlucky Accident , which obliged him to keep out of the
way ; He disguised himself , so that his nearest Friends could not have
known him , (BURNETROC-E3-H,27.122)
and set up in Tower-street for an Italian
Mountebank , where he practised Physick for some Weeks not
without success . (BURNETROC-E3-H,27.123)
In his later years , he read Books of History more .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,27.124)
He took pleasure to disguise himself as a Porter , or as
a Beggar ; sometimes to follow some mean Amours ,
which , for the variety of them , he affected ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,28.125)
At other times , meerly for diversion , he would go about in odd shapes
, in which he acted his part so naturally , that even those who were in
the secret , and saw him in these shapes , could perceive nothing by
which he might be discovered . (BURNETROC-E3-H,28.126)
He told me when I saw him , That he hoped I would come to him upon that
general Insinuation of the desire he had of my Company ; and he was
loth to write more plainly : not knowing whether I could easily spare
so much time . (BURNETROC-E3-H,136.128)
I told him , That on the other hand , I looked on it as a presumption
to come so far , when he was in such excellent hands ;
(BURNETROC-E3-H,136.129)
and though perhaps the freedom formerly between us , might have excused
it with those to whom it was known ; yet it might have the appearance
of so much Vanity , to such as were strangers to it ; So that till I
received his Letter , I did not think it convenient to come to him :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,136.130)
And then not hearing that there was any danger of a sudden change , I
delayed going to him till the Twentieth of July
. (BURNETROC-E3-H,137.131)
At my coming to his House an accident fell out not worth mentioning ,
but that some have made a story of it . (BURNETROC-E3-H,137.132)
His Servant , being a French-man , carried up my Name
wrong , so that he mistook it for another , who had sent to him , that
he would undertake his Cure , (BURNETROC-E3-H,137.133)
and he being resolved not to meddle with him , did not care to see him
: (BURNETROC-E3-H,137.134)
This mistake lasted some hours , with which I was better contented ,
because he was not then in such a condition that my being about him
could have been of any use to him : (BURNETROC-E3-H,137.135)
for that Night was like to have been his last .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,137.136)
He had a Convulsion-Fit , (BURNETROC-E3-H,137.137)
and raved ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,137.138)
but , Opiates being given him , after some hours
rest , his raving left him so entirely , that it never again returned
to him . (BURNETROC-E3-H,138.139)
I $can $not {TEXT:cannot} easily express the Transport he was in , when
he awoke and saw me by him : (BURNETROC-E3-H,138.140)
He brake out in the tenderest Expressions concerning my kindness in
coming so far to see such a One , using terms of great
abhorrence concerning himself , which I forbear to relate .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,138.141)
He told me , as his strength served him at several snatches , for he
was then so low , that he could not hold up discourse long at once ,
what sense he had of his past life ; what sad apprehension for having
so offended his Maker , and dishonoured his Redeemer : What Horrours he
had gone through , and how much his Mind was turned to call on
God , and on his Crucified Saviour : So that he hoped he should obtain
Mercy , (BURNETROC-E3-H,139.142)
for he believed he had sincerely repented ; and had now a calm in his
Mind after that storm that he had been in for some Weeks .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,139.143)
He had strong Apprehensions and Perswasions of his admittance to Heaven
: of which he spake once not without some extraordinary Emotion .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,139.144)
It was indeed the only time that he spake with any great warmth to me :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,139.145)
For his Spirits were then low , and so far spent , that though those
about him told me , He had expressed formerly great fervor in his
Devotions ; Yet Nature was so much sunk , that these were in a great
measure fallen off . (BURNETROC-E3-H,139.146)
But he made me pray often with him ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,140.147)
and spoke of his Conversion to God as a thing now grown up in him to a
setled and calm serenity . (BURNETROC-E3-H,140.148)
He was very anxious to $have {TEXT:'have'_missing} known my Opinion of
a Death-Bed Repentance . (BURNETROC-E3-H,140.149)
I told him , That before I gave any Resolution in that , it would be
convenient that I should be acquainted more particularly with the
Circumstances and Progress of his Repentance . (BURNETROC-E3-H,140.150)
Upon this he satisfied me in many particulars .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,140.151)
He said , He was now perswaded both of the truth of Christianity
, and of the power of inward Grace , of which he gave me this
strange account . (BURNETROC-E3-H,140.152)
He said , Mr. Parsons in order to his Conviction , read
to him the 53. Chapter of the Prophesie of
Isaiah , (BURNETROC-E3-H,141.153)
and compared that with the History of our Saviour's
Passion , that he might there see a Prophesie concerning it , written
many Ages before it was done ; which the Jews that
blasphemed Jesus Christ still kept in their hands , as a Book divinely
inspired . (BURNETROC-E3-H,141.154)
He said to me , That as he heard it read , he felt an inward
force upon him , which did so enlighten his Mind , and convince him ,
that he could resist it no longer : (BURNETROC-E3-H,141.155)
For the words had an authority which did shoot like Raies or Beams in
his Mind ; So that he was not only convinced by the Reasonings he had
about it , which satisfied his Understanding , but by a power which did
so effectually constrain him , that he did ever after as firmly believe
in his Saviour , as if he had seen him in the Clouds .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,142.156)
He had made it to be read so often to him , that he had got it by heart
: (BURNETROC-E3-H,142.157)
and went through a great part of it in Discourse with me , with a sort
of heavenly Pleasure , giving me his Reflections on it .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,142.158)
Some few I remember , Who hath believed our Report ?
(BURNETROC-E3-H,142.159)
Here , he said , was foretold the Opposition the
Gospel was to meet with from such Wretches as he was .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,142.160)
He hath no Form nor Comliness , (BURNETROC-E3-H,142.161)
and when we shall see Him , there is no beauty that we should desire
him . (BURNETROC-E3-H,142.162)
On this he said , The meanness of his appearance and Person has
made vain and foolish people disparage Him , because he came not in
such a Fools-Coat as they delight in . (BURNETROC-E3-H,142.163)
What he said on the other parts I do not well remember :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,142.164)
and indeed I was so affected with what he said then to me ,
that the general transport I was under during the whole Discourse ,
made me less capable to remember these Particulars , as I wish I had
done . (BURNETROC-E3-H,143.165)
He told me , That he had thereupon received the Sacrament with great
satisfaction and that was encreased by the pleasure he had in his
Ladies receiving it with him : who had been for some years misled into
the Communion of the Church of Rome ,
(BURNETROC-E3-H,143.166)
and he himself had been not a little Instrumental in procuring it , as
he freely acknowledged . So that it was one of the joyfullest things
that befel him in his Sickness , that he had seen that Mischief removed
, in which he had so great a Hand : (BURNETROC-E3-H,143.167)
and during his whole Sickness , he expressed so much tenderness
and true kindness to his Lady , that as it easily defaced the
remembrance of every thing wherein he had been in fault formerly , so
it drew from her the most passionate care and concern for him that was
possible : which indeed deserves a higher Character than is decent to
give of a Person yet alive . (BURNETROC-E3-H,144.168)
But I shall confine my Discourse to the Dead . (BURNETROC-E3-H,144.169)
He told me , He had overcome all his Resentments to all the World ; So
that he bore ill will to no Person , nor hated any upon personal
accounts . (BURNETROC-E3-H,144.170)
He had given a true state of his Debts , (BURNETROC-E3-H,144.171)
and had ordered to pay them all , as far as his Estate that was not
setled , could go : (BURNETROC-E3-H,144.172)
and was confident that if all that was owing to him were paid to his
Executors , his Creditors would be all satisfied .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,145.174)
He said , He found his Mind now possessed with another sense of things
than ever he had formerly : (BURNETROC-E3-H,145.175)
He did not repine under all his pain , (BURNETROC-E3-H,145.176)
and in one of the sharpest Fits he was under while I was with him ; He
said , He did willingly submit ;
(BURNETROC-E3-H,145.177)
and looking up to Heaven , said , God's holy Will be done ,
(BURNETROC-E3-H,145.178)
I bless Him for all He does to me . (BURNETROC-E3-H,145.179)
He professed he was contented either-1 to die or live , as should
please God : (BURNETROC-E3-H,145.180)
And though it was a foolish thing for a man to pretend to choose ,
Whether he would die or live , yet he wished rather to die .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,145.181)
He knew he could never be so well , that life should be
comfortable to him . (BURNETROC-E3-H,146.182)
He was confident he should be happy if he died (BURNETROC-E3-H,146.183)
but he feared if he lived he might Relapse : (BURNETROC-E3-H,146.184)
And then said he to me , In what a condition shall I be , if I
Relapse after all this ? (BURNETROC-E3-H,146.185)
But , he said , he trusted in the Grace and Goodness of
God , and was resolved to avoid all those Temptations , that Course of
Life , and Company , that was likely to insnare him :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,146.186)
and he desired to live on no other account , but that he might by the
change of his Manners some way take off the high Scandal his former
Behaviour had given . (BURNETROC-E3-H,146.187)
All these things at several times I had from him , besides some
Messages which very well became a dying Penitent to some of his former
Friends , and a Charge to publish any thing concerning him ,
that might be a mean to reclaim others . Praying God , that as
his life had done much hurt , so his death might do some good .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,147.188)
Having understood all these things from him , and being pressed to give
him my Opinion plainly about his Eternal State ; I told him , That
though the Promises of the Gospel did all depend upon a real change of
Heart and Life , as the indispensable condition upon which they were
made ; and that it was scarce possible to know certainly whether our
Hearts are changed , unless it appeared in our lives ; and the
Repentance of most dying men , being like the howlings of condemned
Prisoners for Pardon , which flowed from no sense of their
Crimes , but from the horrour of approaching Death ; there was little
reason to encourage any to hope much from such Sorrowing : Yet
certainly if the Mind of a Sinner , even on a Death-Bed , be truly
renewed and turned to God , so great is His Mercy , that He will
receive him , even in that extremity . (BURNETROC-E3-H,148.189)
He said , He was sure his Mind was entirely turned and though
Horrour had given him his first awaking , yet that was now grown up
into a setled Faith and Conversion . (BURNETROC-E3-H,148.190)
There is but one prejudice lies against all this , to defeat the good
Ends of Divine Providence by it upon others , as well as on himself :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,148.191)
and that is that it was a part of his Disease , and that the lowness of
his Spirits made such an alteration in him , that he was not
what he had formerly been : (BURNETROC-E3-H,149.192)
and this some have carried so far as to say , That he died mad :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,149.193)
These Reports are raised by those who are unwilling that the last
Thoughts or Words of a Person , every way so extraordinary , should
have any effect either-2 on themselves or others :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,149.194)
And it is to be fear'd , that some may have so far feared their
Consciences , and exceeded the common Measures of Sin and Infidelity ,
that neither this Testimony , nor one coming from the Dead , would
signifie much towards their Conviction . (BURNETROC-E3-H,149.195)
That this Lord was either mad or stupid , is a thing so notoriously
untrue , that it is the greatest Impudence for any that were
about him , to Report it ; and a very unreasonable Credulity in others
to believe it . (BURNETROC-E3-H,150.196)
All the while I was with him , after he had slept out the disorders of
the Fit he was in the first Night , he was not only without Ravings ;
(BURNETROC-E3-H,150.197)
but had a clearness in his Thoughts , in his Memory , in his
reflections on Things and Persons , far beyond what I ever saw in a
Person so low in his strength . (BURNETROC-E3-H,150.198)
He was not able to hold out long in Discourse ,
(BURNETROC-E3-H,150.199)
for his Spirits failed : (BURNETROC-E3-H,150.200)
but once for half an hour , and often for a quarter of an hour , after
he awakened , he had a Vivacity in his Discourse that was extraordinary
, and in all things like himself . (BURNETROC-E3-H,150.201)
He called often for his Children , his Son the now Earl of
Rochester , and his three Daughters ,
(BURNETROC-E3-H,151.202)
and spake to them with a sense and feeling that $can $not {TEXT:cannot}
be expressed in Writing . (BURNETROC-E3-H,151.203)
He called me once to look on them all , (BURNETROC-E3-H,151.204)
and said , See how Good God has been to me , in giving me so
many Blessings , (BURNETROC-E3-H,151.205)
and I have carried my self to Him like an ungracious and unthankful Dog
. (BURNETROC-E3-H,151.206)
He once talked a great deal to me of Publick Affairs , and of many
Persons and things , with the same clearness of thought and expression
, that he had ever done before . So that by no sign , but his Weakness
of Body , and giving over Discourse so soon , could I perceive a
difference between what his Parts formerly were , and what they were
then . (BURNETROC-E3-H,151.207)
And that wherein the presence of his Mind appeared most , was
in the total change of an ill habit grown so much upon him , that he
could hardly govern himself , when he was any ways heated , three
Minutes without falling into it ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,152.208)
I mean Swearing . (BURNETROC-E3-H,152.209)
He had acknowledged to me the former Winter , that he abhorred it as a
base and indecent thing , and had set himself much to break it off :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,152.210)
but he confessed that he was so over-power'd by that ill Custom , that
he could not speak with any warmth , without repeated Oaths , which ,
upon any sort of provocation , came almost naturally from him :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,152.211)
But in his last Remorses this did so sensibly affect him , that by a
resolute and constant watchfulness , the habit of it was perfectly
master'd ; So that , upon the returns of pain which were very
severe and frequent upon him , the last day I was with him ; or upon
such Displeasures as people sick or in pain are apt to take of a sudden
at those about them ; On all these Occasions he never swore an Oath all
the while I was there . (BURNETROC-E3-H,153.212)
Once he was offended with the delay of one that he thought made not
hast enough , with somewhat he called for , (BURNETROC-E3-H,153.213)
and said in a little heat , That damned Fellow :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,153.214)
Soon after I told him , I was glad to find his Style so reformed , and
that he had so entirely overcome that ill habit of Swearing ;
(BURNETROC-E3-H,153.215)
Only that word of calling any damned , which had
returned upon him , was not decent . (BURNETROC-E3-H,153.216)
His Answer was : Oh that Language of Fiends , which was
so familiar to me , hangs yet about me : (BURNETROC-E3-H,154.217)
Sure none has deserved more to be damned than I have done .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,154.218)
And after he had humbly asked God Pardon for it , he desired me to call
the Person to him , that he might ask him forgiveness :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,154.219)
but I told him that was needless (BURNETROC-E3-H,154.220)
for he had said it of one that did not hear it , and so could not be
offended by it . (BURNETROC-E3-H,154.221)
In this disposition of Mind did he continue all the while I was with
him , four days together ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,154.222)
He was then brought so low that all hope of Recovery was gone .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,154.223)
Much purulent matter came from him with his Urine , which he passed
always with some pain ; But one day with unexpressible torment :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,154.224)
Yet he bore it decently , without breaking out into Repinings , or
impatient Complaints . (BURNETROC-E3-H,155.226)
He imagined he had a Stone in his Passage , (BURNETROC-E3-H,155.227)
but it being searched , none was found . (BURNETROC-E3-H,155.228)
The whole substance of his Body was drained by the Ulcer ,
(BURNETROC-E3-H,155.229)
and nothing was left but Skin and Bone : (BURNETROC-E3-H,155.230)
and by lying much on his Back , the parts there began to mortifie .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,155.231)
But he had been formerly so low , that he seemed as much past all hopes
of life as now ; which made him one Morning after a full and sweet
Nights rest , procured by Laudanum , given him without his knowledge ,
to fancy it was an effort of Nature , and to begin to entertain some
hopes of Recovery : (BURNETROC-E3-H,155.232)
For he said , He felt himself perfectly well , and that he had
nothing ailing him , but an extream weakness , which might go off in
time : (BURNETROC-E3-H,156.233)
and then he entertained me with the Scheme he had laid down for the
rest of his life , how retired , how strict , and how studious he
intended to be : (BURNETROC-E3-H,156.234)
But this was soon over , (BURNETROC-E3-H,156.235)
for he quickly felt that it was only the effect of a good sleep , and
that he was still in a very desperate state . (BURNETROC-E3-H,156.236)
I thought to have left him on Friday ,
(BURNETROC-E3-H,156.237)
but not without some Passion , he desired me to stay that day :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,156.238)
there appeared no symptome of present death ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,156.239)
and a Worthy Physitian then with him , told me , That though he was so
low that an accident might carry him away on a suddain ; Yet without
that , he thought he might live yet some Weeks .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,157.240)
So on Saturday , at Four of the Clock in the Morning I
left him , being the 24th of July .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,157.241)
But I durst not take leave of him ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,157.242)
for he had expressed so great an unwillingness to part with me the day
before , that if I had not presently yielded to one days stay , it was
like to have given him some trouble , (BURNETROC-E3-H,157.243)
therefore I thought it better to leave him without any Formality .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,157.244)
Some hours after he asked for me , (BURNETROC-E3-H,157.245)
and when it was told him , I was gone , he seem'd to be troubled ,
(BURNETROC-E3-H,157.246)
and said , Has my friend left me , (BURNETROC-E3-H,157.247)
then I shall die shortly . (BURNETROC-E3-H,157.248)
After that he spake but once or twice till he died :
(BURNETROC-E3-H,157.249)
He lay much silent : (BURNETROC-E3-H,157.250)
Once they heard him praying very devoutly . (BURNETROC-E3-H,157.251)
And on Monday about Two of the Clock in the Morning , he
died , without any Convulsion , or so much as a groan .
(BURNETROC-E3-H,158.253)