SOME PASSAGES OF THE LIFE AND DEATH OF JOHN EARL OF ROCHESTER (BURNETROC-E3-H,1.3) John Wilmot Earl of Rochester was born in April , Anno Dom. 1648 . (BURNETROC-E3-H,1.5) his father was Henry Earl of Rochester , but best known by the Title of the Lord Wilmot , who bore so great a part in all the late Wars , that mention is often made of him in the History : And had the chief share in the Honour of the preservation of His Majesty that now Reigns , after Worcester -Fight , and the Conveying Him from Place to Place , till he happily escaped into France : (BURNETROC-E3-H,2.6) But dying before the King's Return , he left his Son little other Inheritance , but the Honour and Title derived to him , with the pretensions such eminent Services gave him to the King's Favour : (BURNETROC-E3-H,2.7) These were carefully managed by the great prudence and discretion of his Mother , a Daughter of that Noble and ancient Family of the St. Johns of Wiltshire , so that his Education was carried on all things sutably to his Quality . (BURNETROC-E3-H,3.8) When he was at School he was an extraordinary Proficient at his Book : (BURNETROC-E3-H,3.9) and those shining parts , which have since appeared with so much lustre ; began then to shew themselves : (BURNETROC-E3-H,3.10) He acquired the Latin to such perfection , that to his dying-day he retained a great rellish of the fineness and Beauty of that Tongue : and was exactly versed in the incomparable Authors that writ about Augustus's time , whom he read often with that peculiar delight which the greatest Wits have ever found in those Studies . (BURNETROC-E3-H,3.11) When he went to the University the general Joy which over-ran the whole Nation upon his Majesties Restauration , but was not regulated with that Sobriety and Temperance , that became a serious gratitude to God for so great a Blessing , produced some of its ill effects on him : (BURNETROC-E3-H,4.12) He began to love these disorders too much ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,4.13) His Tutor was that Eminent and Pious Divine Dr. Blandford , afterwards promoted to the Sees of Oxford and Worcester : (BURNETROC-E3-H,4.14) And under his Inspection , he was committed to the more immediate care of Mr. Phineas Berry , a Fellow of Wadham -Colledge , a very learned and good natured man ; whom he afterwards ever used with much respect , and rewarded him as became a great man . (BURNETROC-E3-H,4.15) But the humour of that time wrought so much on him , that he broke off the Course of his Studies ; to which no means could ever effectually recall him ; till when he was in Italy his Governor , Dr. Balfour , a learned and worthy man , now a Celebrated Physitian in Scotland , his Native Country ; drew him to read such Books , as were most likely to bring him back to love Learning and Study : (BURNETROC-E3-H,5.16) and he often acknowledged to me , in particular three days before his Death , how much he was obliged to Love and Honour this his Governour , to whom he thought he owed more than to all the World , next after his Parents , for his great Fidelity and Care of him , while he was under his trust . (BURNETROC-E3-H,5.17) But no part of it affected him more sensibly , than that he engaged him by many tricks so he expressed it to delight in Books and reading ; So that ever after he took occasion in the Intervals of those woful Extravagancies that consumed most of his time to read much : (BURNETROC-E3-H,6.18) and though the time was generally but indifferently employed , for the choice of the Subjects of his Studies was not always good , yet the habitual Love of Knowledge together with these fits of study , had much awakened his Understanding , (BURNETROC-E3-H,6.19) and prepared him for better things , when his mind should be so far changed as to rellish them . (BURNETROC-E3-H,6.20) He came from his Travels in the 18th Year of his {HELSINKI:his_his} Age , (BURNETROC-E3-H,6.21) and appeared at Court with as great Advantages as most ever had . (BURNETROC-E3-H,6.22) He was a Graceful and well shaped Person , tall and well made , if not a little too slender : (BURNETROC-E3-H,7.23) He was exactly well bred , (BURNETROC-E3-H,7.24) and what by a modest behaviour natural to him , what by a Civility become almost as natural , his Conversation was easie and obliging . (BURNETROC-E3-H,7.25) He had a strange Vivacity of thought , and vigour of expression : (BURNETROC-E3-H,7.26) His Wit had a subtility and sublimity both , that were scarce imitable . (BURNETROC-E3-H,7.27) His Style was clear and strong : (BURNETROC-E3-H,7.28) When he used Figures they were very lively , and yet far enough out of the Common Road : (BURNETROC-E3-H,7.29) he had made himself Master of the Ancient and Modern Wit , and of the Modern French and Italian as well as the English . (BURNETROC-E3-H,7.30) He loved to talk and write of Speculative Matters , (BURNETROC-E3-H,7.31) and did it with so fine a thread , that even those who hated the Subjects that his Fancy ran upon , yet could not but be charmed with his way of treating them . (BURNETROC-E3-H,8.32) Boileau among the French , and Cowley among the English Wits , were those he admired most . (BURNETROC-E3-H,8.33) Sometimes other mens thoughts mixed with his Composures , (BURNETROC-E3-H,8.34) but that flowed rather from the Impressions they made on him when he read them , by which they came to return upon him as his own thoughts ; than that he servilely copied from any . (BURNETROC-E3-H,8.35) For few men ever had a bolder flight of fancy , more steddily governed by Judgment than he had . (BURNETROC-E3-H,8.36) No wonder a young man so made , and so improved was very acceptable in a Court . (BURNETROC-E3-H,8.37) Soon after his coming thither he laid hold on the first Occasion that offered to shew his readiness to hazard his life in the Defence and Service of his Country . (BURNETROC-E3-H,9.38) In Winter 1665 . he went with the Earl of Sandwich to Sea , when he was sent to lie for the Dutch East-India Fleet ; and was in the Revenge , Commanded by Sir Thomas Tiddiman , when the Attack was made on the Port of Bergen in Norway , the Dutch ships having got into that Port . (BURNETROC-E3-H,9.39) It was as desperate an Attempt as ever was made : (BURNETROC-E3-H,9.40) during the whole Action , the Earl of Rochester shewed as brave and as resolute a Courage as was possible : (BURNETROC-E3-H,9.41) a Person of Honour told me he heard the Lord Clifford , who was in the same Ship , often magnifie his Courage at that time very highly . (BURNETROC-E3-H,9.42) Nor did the Rigours of the Season , the hardness of the Voyage , and the extream danger he had been in , deter him from running the like on the very next Occasion ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,10.43) For the Summer following he went to Sea again , without communicating his design to his nearest Relations . (BURNETROC-E3-H,10.44) He went aboard the Ship Commanded by Sir Edward Spragge the day before the great Sea-fight of that Year : (BURNETROC-E3-H,10.45) Almost all the Volunteers that were in the same Ship were killed . (BURNETROC-E3-H,10.46) Mr. Middleton brother to Sir Hugh Middleton was shot in his Arms . (BURNETROC-E3-H,10.47) During the Action , Sir Edward Spragge , not being satisfied with the behaviour of one of the Captains , could not easily find a Person that would chearfully venture through so much danger , to carry his Commands to that Captain . (BURNETROC-E3-H,11.48) This Lord offered himself to the Service ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,11.49) and went in a little Boat , through all the shot , (BURNETROC-E3-H,11.50) and delivered his Message , (BURNETROC-E3-H,11.51) and returned back to Sir Edward : which was much commended by all that saw it . (BURNETROC-E3-H,11.52) He thought it necessary to begin his life with these Demonstrations of his Courage in an Element and way of fighting , which is acknowledged to be the greatest trial of clear and undaunted Valour . (BURNETROC-E3-H,11.53) He had so entirely laid down the Intemperance that was growing on him before his Travels , that at his Return he hated nothing more . (BURNETROC-E3-H,11.54) But falling into Company that loved these Excesses , he was , though not without difficulty , and by many steps , brought back to it again . (BURNETROC-E3-H,12.55) And the natural heat of his fancy , being inflamed by Wine , made him so extravagantly pleasant , that many to be more diverted by that humor , studied to engage him deeper and deeper in Intemperance : which at length did so entirely subdue him ; that , as he told me , for five years together he was continually Drunk : (BURNETROC-E3-H,12.56) not all the while under the visible effect of it , (BURNETROC-E3-H,12.57) but his blood was so inflamed , that he was not in all that time cool enough to be perfectly Master of himself . (BURNETROC-E3-H,12.58) This led him to say and do many wild and unaccountable things : (BURNETROC-E3-H,12.59) By this , he said , he had broke the firm constitution of his Health , that seemed so strong , that nothing was too hard for it ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,12.60) and he had suffered so much in his Reputation , that he almost dispaired to recover it . (BURNETROC-E3-H,13.61) There were two Principles in his natural temper , that being heighten'd by that heat carried him to great excesses : a violent love of Pleasure , and a disposition to extravagant Mirth . (BURNETROC-E3-H,13.62) The one involved him in great sensuality : (BURNETROC-E3-H,13.63) the other led him to many odd Adventures and Frollicks , in which he was oft in hazard of his life . The one being the same irregular appetite in his Mind , that the other was in his Body , which made him think nothing diverting that was not extravagant . (BURNETROC-E3-H,13.64) And though in cold blood he was a generous and good natured man , yet he would go far in his heats , after any thing that might turn to a Jest or matter of Diversion : (BURNETROC-E3-H,14.65) He said to me , He never improved his Interest at Court , to do a premeditate Mischief to other persons . (BURNETROC-E3-H,14.66) Yet he laid out his Wit very freely in Libels and Satyrs , in which he had a peculiar Talent of mixing his Wit with his Malice , and fitting both with such apt words , that Men were tempted to be pleased with them : (BURNETROC-E3-H,14.67) from thence his Composures came to be easily known , (BURNETROC-E3-H,14.68) for few had such a way of tempering these together as he had ; So that when any thing extraordinary that way came out , as a Child is fathered sometimes by its Resemblance , so was it laid at his Door as its Parent and Author . (BURNETROC-E3-H,14.69) These Exercises in the course of his life were not always equally pleasant to him ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,15.70) he had often sad Intervals and severe Reflections on them : (BURNETROC-E3-H,15.71) and though then he had not these awakened in him from any deep Principle of Religion , yet the horrour that Nature raised in him , especially in some Sicknesses , made him too easie to receive some ill Principles , which others endeavoured to possess him with ; so that he was too soon brought to set himself to secure , and fortifie his Mind against that , by dispossessing it all he could of the belief or apprehensions of Religion . (BURNETROC-E3-H,15.72) The Licentiousness of his temper , with the briskness of his Wit , disposed him to love the Conversation of those who divided their time between lewd Actions and irregular Mirth . (BURNETROC-E3-H,16.73) And so he came to bend his Wit , and direct his Studies and Endeavours to support and strengthen these ill Principles in himself and others . (BURNETROC-E3-H,16.74) An accident fell out after this , which confirmed him more in these Courses : (BURNETROC-E3-H,16.75) when he went to Sea in the Year 1665 , there happened to be in the same Ship with him Mr. Mountague and another Gentleman of Quality , (BURNETROC-E3-H,16.76) these two , the former especially , seemed perswaded that they should never return into England . (BURNETROC-E3-H,16.77) Mr. Mountague said , He was sure of it : (BURNETROC-E3-H,16.78) the other was not so positive . (BURNETROC-E3-H,16.79) The Earl of Rochester , and the last of these , entred into a formal Engagement , not without Ceremonies of Religion , that if either of them died , he should appear , and give the other notice of the future State , if there was any . (BURNETROC-E3-H,17.80) But Mr. Mountague would not enter into the Bond . (BURNETROC-E3-H,17.81) When the day came that they thought to have taken the Dutch -Fleet in the Port of Bergen , Mr. Mountague though he had such a strong Presage in his Mind of his approaching death , yet he generously staid all the while in the place of greatest danger : (BURNETROC-E3-H,17.82) The other Gentleman signalized his Courage in a most undaunted manner , till near the end of the Action ; when he fell on a sudden into such a trembling that he could scarce stand ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,17.83) and Mr. Mountague going to him to hold him up , as they were in each others Arms , a Cannon Ball killed him outright , (BURNETROC-E3-H,18.84) and carried away Mr. Mountague's Belly , so that he died within an hour after . (BURNETROC-E3-H,18.85) The Earl of Rochester told me that these Presages they had in their minds made some impression on him , that there were separated Beings : and that the Soul , either-4 by a natural sagacity , or some secret Notice communicated to it , had a sort of Divination : (BURNETROC-E3-H,18.86) But that Gentlemans never appearing was a great snare to him , during the rest of his life . Though when he told me this , he could not but acknowledge , it was as unreasonable thing for him , to think , that Beings in another State were not under such Laws and Limits , that they could not command their own motions , but as the Supream Power should order them : and that one who had so corrupted the Natural Principles of Truth , as he had , had no reason to expect that such an extraordinary thing should be done for his Conviction . (BURNETROC-E3-H,19.87) He told me of another odd Presage that one had of his approaching Death in the Lady Warre , his Mother in Laws house : (BURNETROC-E3-H,19.88) The Chaplain had dream't that such a day he should die , (BURNETROC-E3-H,19.89) but being by all the Family put out of the belief of it , he had almost forgot it ; till the Evening before at Supper , there being Thirteen at Table ; according to a fond conceit that one of these must soon die , One of the young Ladies pointed to him , that he was to die . (BURNETROC-E3-H,20.90) He remembering his Dream fell into some disorder (BURNETROC-E3-H,20.91) and the Lady Warre reproving him for his Superstition , he said , He was confident he was to die before Morning , (BURNETROC-E3-H,20.92) but he being in perfect health , it was not much minded . (BURNETROC-E3-H,20.93) It was Saturday -Night , (BURNETROC-E3-H,20.94) and he was to Preach next day . (BURNETROC-E3-H,20.95) He went to his Chamber (BURNETROC-E3-H,20.96) and sate up late , as appeared by the burning of his Candle , (BURNETROC-E3-H,20.97) and he had been preparing his Notes for his Sermon , (BURNETROC-E3-H,20.98) but was found dead in his Bed the next Morning : (BURNETROC-E3-H,20.99) These things he said made him inclined to believe , the Soul was a substance distinct from matter : (BURNETROC-E3-H,20.100) and this often returned into his thoughts . (BURNETROC-E3-H,20.101) But that which perfected his perswasion about it , was , that in the Sickness which brought him so near death before I first knew him , when his Spirits were so low and spent , that he could not move nor stir , and he did not think to live an hour ; He said , His Reason and Judgment were so clear and strong , that from thence he was fully perswaded that Death was not the spending or dissolution of the Soul ; but only the separation of it from matter . (BURNETROC-E3-H,21.102) He had in that Sickness great Remorses for his past Life , (BURNETROC-E3-H,21.103) but he afterwards told me , They were rather general and dark Horrours , than any Convictions of sinning against God . (BURNETROC-E3-H,21.104) He was sorry he had lived so as to wast his strength so soon , or that he had brought such an ill name upon himself , (BURNETROC-E3-H,21.105) and had an Agony in his Mind about it , which he knew not well how to express : (BURNETROC-E3-H,22.106) But at such times , though he complied with his Friends in suffering Divines to be sent for , he said , He had no great mind to it : and that it was but a piece of his breeding , to desire them to pray by him , in which he joyned little himself . (BURNETROC-E3-H,22.107) As to the Supream Being , he had always some Impression of one : (BURNETROC-E3-H,22.108) and professed often to me , That he had never known an entire Atheist , who fully believed there was no God . (BURNETROC-E3-H,22.109) Yet when he explained his Notion of this Being , it amounted to no more than a vast power , that had none of the Attributes of Goodness or Justice , we ascribe to the Deity : (BURNETROC-E3-H,22.110) These were his thoughts about Religion , as himself told me . (BURNETROC-E3-H,23.111) For Morality , he freely own'd to me , that though he talked of it , as a fine thing , yet this was only because he thought it a decent way of speaking , and that as they went always in Cloaths , though in their Frollicks they would have chosen sometimes to have gone naked , if they had not feared the people : So though some of them found it necessary for humane life to talk of Morality , yet he confessed they cared not for it , further than the reputation of it was necessary for their credit , and affairs : of which he gave me many Instances , as their professing and swearing Friendship , where they hated mortally ; their Oaths and Imprecations in their Addresses to Women , which they intended never to make good ; the pleasure they took in defaming innocent Persons , and spreading false Reports of some , perhaps in Revenge , because they could not enage {COM:sic} them to comply with their ill Designs : The delight they had in making people quarrel ; their unjust usage of their Creditors , and putting them off by any deceitful Promise they could invent , that might deliver them from present Importunity . So that in detestation of these Courses he would often break forth into such hard Expressions concerning himself as would be indecent for another to repeat . (BURNETROC-E3-H,24.112) Such had been his Principles and Practices in a Course of many years which had almost quite extinguish't the natural Propensities in him to Justice and Vertue : (BURNETROC-E3-H,25.113) He would often go into the Country , and be for some months wholly imployed in Study , or the Sallies of his Wit : Which he came to direct chiefly to Satyre . (BURNETROC-E3-H,25.114) And this he often defended to me ; by saying there were some people that could not be kept in Order , or admonished but in this way . (BURNETROC-E3-H,25.115) I replied , That it might be granted that a grave way of Satyre was sometimes no improfitable way of Reproof . (BURNETROC-E3-H,25.116) and Yet they who used it only out of spite , and mixed Lyes with Truth , sparing nothing that might adorn their Poems , or gratifie their Revenge , could not excuse that way of Reproach , by which the Innocent often suffer : since the most malicious things , if wittily expressed , might stick to and blemish the best men in the World , and the malice of a Libel could hardly consist with the Charity of an Admonition . (BURNETROC-E3-H,26.117) To this he answered , A man could not write with life , unless he were heated by Revenge : (BURNETROC-E3-H,26.118) For to make a Satyre without Resentments , upon the cold Notions of Phylosophy , was as if a man would in cold blood , cut mens throats who had never offended him : (BURNETROC-E3-H,26.119) And he said , The Lyes in these Libels came ofen in as Ornaments that could not be spared without spoiling the beauty of the Poem . (BURNETROC-E3-H,26.120) For his other Studies , they were divided between the Comical and witty Writings of the Ancients and Moderns , the Roman Authors , and Books of Physick : which the ill state of health he was fallen into , made more necessary to himself : and which qualifi'd him for an odd adventure , which I shall but just mention . (BURNETROC-E3-H,27.121) Being under an unlucky Accident , which obliged him to keep out of the way ; He disguised himself , so that his nearest Friends could not have known him , (BURNETROC-E3-H,27.122) and set up in Tower-street for an Italian Mountebank , where he practised Physick for some Weeks not without success . (BURNETROC-E3-H,27.123) In his later years , he read Books of History more . (BURNETROC-E3-H,27.124) He took pleasure to disguise himself as a Porter , or as a Beggar ; sometimes to follow some mean Amours , which , for the variety of them , he affected ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,28.125) At other times , meerly for diversion , he would go about in odd shapes , in which he acted his part so naturally , that even those who were in the secret , and saw him in these shapes , could perceive nothing by which he might be discovered . (BURNETROC-E3-H,28.126) He told me when I saw him , That he hoped I would come to him upon that general Insinuation of the desire he had of my Company ; and he was loth to write more plainly : not knowing whether I could easily spare so much time . (BURNETROC-E3-H,136.128) I told him , That on the other hand , I looked on it as a presumption to come so far , when he was in such excellent hands ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,136.129) and though perhaps the freedom formerly between us , might have excused it with those to whom it was known ; yet it might have the appearance of so much Vanity , to such as were strangers to it ; So that till I received his Letter , I did not think it convenient to come to him : (BURNETROC-E3-H,136.130) And then not hearing that there was any danger of a sudden change , I delayed going to him till the Twentieth of July . (BURNETROC-E3-H,137.131) At my coming to his House an accident fell out not worth mentioning , but that some have made a story of it . (BURNETROC-E3-H,137.132) His Servant , being a French-man , carried up my Name wrong , so that he mistook it for another , who had sent to him , that he would undertake his Cure , (BURNETROC-E3-H,137.133) and he being resolved not to meddle with him , did not care to see him : (BURNETROC-E3-H,137.134) This mistake lasted some hours , with which I was better contented , because he was not then in such a condition that my being about him could have been of any use to him : (BURNETROC-E3-H,137.135) for that Night was like to have been his last . (BURNETROC-E3-H,137.136) He had a Convulsion-Fit , (BURNETROC-E3-H,137.137) and raved ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,137.138) but , Opiates being given him , after some hours rest , his raving left him so entirely , that it never again returned to him . (BURNETROC-E3-H,138.139) I $can $not {TEXT:cannot} easily express the Transport he was in , when he awoke and saw me by him : (BURNETROC-E3-H,138.140) He brake out in the tenderest Expressions concerning my kindness in coming so far to see such a One , using terms of great abhorrence concerning himself , which I forbear to relate . (BURNETROC-E3-H,138.141) He told me , as his strength served him at several snatches , for he was then so low , that he could not hold up discourse long at once , what sense he had of his past life ; what sad apprehension for having so offended his Maker , and dishonoured his Redeemer : What Horrours he had gone through , and how much his Mind was turned to call on God , and on his Crucified Saviour : So that he hoped he should obtain Mercy , (BURNETROC-E3-H,139.142) for he believed he had sincerely repented ; and had now a calm in his Mind after that storm that he had been in for some Weeks . (BURNETROC-E3-H,139.143) He had strong Apprehensions and Perswasions of his admittance to Heaven : of which he spake once not without some extraordinary Emotion . (BURNETROC-E3-H,139.144) It was indeed the only time that he spake with any great warmth to me : (BURNETROC-E3-H,139.145) For his Spirits were then low , and so far spent , that though those about him told me , He had expressed formerly great fervor in his Devotions ; Yet Nature was so much sunk , that these were in a great measure fallen off . (BURNETROC-E3-H,139.146) But he made me pray often with him ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,140.147) and spoke of his Conversion to God as a thing now grown up in him to a setled and calm serenity . (BURNETROC-E3-H,140.148) He was very anxious to $have {TEXT:'have'_missing} known my Opinion of a Death-Bed Repentance . (BURNETROC-E3-H,140.149) I told him , That before I gave any Resolution in that , it would be convenient that I should be acquainted more particularly with the Circumstances and Progress of his Repentance . (BURNETROC-E3-H,140.150) Upon this he satisfied me in many particulars . (BURNETROC-E3-H,140.151) He said , He was now perswaded both of the truth of Christianity , and of the power of inward Grace , of which he gave me this strange account . (BURNETROC-E3-H,140.152) He said , Mr. Parsons in order to his Conviction , read to him the 53. Chapter of the Prophesie of Isaiah , (BURNETROC-E3-H,141.153) and compared that with the History of our Saviour's Passion , that he might there see a Prophesie concerning it , written many Ages before it was done ; which the Jews that blasphemed Jesus Christ still kept in their hands , as a Book divinely inspired . (BURNETROC-E3-H,141.154) He said to me , That as he heard it read , he felt an inward force upon him , which did so enlighten his Mind , and convince him , that he could resist it no longer : (BURNETROC-E3-H,141.155) For the words had an authority which did shoot like Raies or Beams in his Mind ; So that he was not only convinced by the Reasonings he had about it , which satisfied his Understanding , but by a power which did so effectually constrain him , that he did ever after as firmly believe in his Saviour , as if he had seen him in the Clouds . (BURNETROC-E3-H,142.156) He had made it to be read so often to him , that he had got it by heart : (BURNETROC-E3-H,142.157) and went through a great part of it in Discourse with me , with a sort of heavenly Pleasure , giving me his Reflections on it . (BURNETROC-E3-H,142.158) Some few I remember , Who hath believed our Report ? (BURNETROC-E3-H,142.159) Here , he said , was foretold the Opposition the Gospel was to meet with from such Wretches as he was . (BURNETROC-E3-H,142.160) He hath no Form nor Comliness , (BURNETROC-E3-H,142.161) and when we shall see Him , there is no beauty that we should desire him . (BURNETROC-E3-H,142.162) On this he said , The meanness of his appearance and Person has made vain and foolish people disparage Him , because he came not in such a Fools-Coat as they delight in . (BURNETROC-E3-H,142.163) What he said on the other parts I do not well remember : (BURNETROC-E3-H,142.164) and indeed I was so affected with what he said then to me , that the general transport I was under during the whole Discourse , made me less capable to remember these Particulars , as I wish I had done . (BURNETROC-E3-H,143.165) He told me , That he had thereupon received the Sacrament with great satisfaction and that was encreased by the pleasure he had in his Ladies receiving it with him : who had been for some years misled into the Communion of the Church of Rome , (BURNETROC-E3-H,143.166) and he himself had been not a little Instrumental in procuring it , as he freely acknowledged . So that it was one of the joyfullest things that befel him in his Sickness , that he had seen that Mischief removed , in which he had so great a Hand : (BURNETROC-E3-H,143.167) and during his whole Sickness , he expressed so much tenderness and true kindness to his Lady , that as it easily defaced the remembrance of every thing wherein he had been in fault formerly , so it drew from her the most passionate care and concern for him that was possible : which indeed deserves a higher Character than is decent to give of a Person yet alive . (BURNETROC-E3-H,144.168) But I shall confine my Discourse to the Dead . (BURNETROC-E3-H,144.169) He told me , He had overcome all his Resentments to all the World ; So that he bore ill will to no Person , nor hated any upon personal accounts . (BURNETROC-E3-H,144.170) He had given a true state of his Debts , (BURNETROC-E3-H,144.171) and had ordered to pay them all , as far as his Estate that was not setled , could go : (BURNETROC-E3-H,144.172) and was confident that if all that was owing to him were paid to his Executors , his Creditors would be all satisfied . (BURNETROC-E3-H,145.174) He said , He found his Mind now possessed with another sense of things than ever he had formerly : (BURNETROC-E3-H,145.175) He did not repine under all his pain , (BURNETROC-E3-H,145.176) and in one of the sharpest Fits he was under while I was with him ; He said , He did willingly submit ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,145.177) and looking up to Heaven , said , God's holy Will be done , (BURNETROC-E3-H,145.178) I bless Him for all He does to me . (BURNETROC-E3-H,145.179) He professed he was contented either-1 to die or live , as should please God : (BURNETROC-E3-H,145.180) And though it was a foolish thing for a man to pretend to choose , Whether he would die or live , yet he wished rather to die . (BURNETROC-E3-H,145.181) He knew he could never be so well , that life should be comfortable to him . (BURNETROC-E3-H,146.182) He was confident he should be happy if he died (BURNETROC-E3-H,146.183) but he feared if he lived he might Relapse : (BURNETROC-E3-H,146.184) And then said he to me , In what a condition shall I be , if I Relapse after all this ? (BURNETROC-E3-H,146.185) But , he said , he trusted in the Grace and Goodness of God , and was resolved to avoid all those Temptations , that Course of Life , and Company , that was likely to insnare him : (BURNETROC-E3-H,146.186) and he desired to live on no other account , but that he might by the change of his Manners some way take off the high Scandal his former Behaviour had given . (BURNETROC-E3-H,146.187) All these things at several times I had from him , besides some Messages which very well became a dying Penitent to some of his former Friends , and a Charge to publish any thing concerning him , that might be a mean to reclaim others . Praying God , that as his life had done much hurt , so his death might do some good . (BURNETROC-E3-H,147.188) Having understood all these things from him , and being pressed to give him my Opinion plainly about his Eternal State ; I told him , That though the Promises of the Gospel did all depend upon a real change of Heart and Life , as the indispensable condition upon which they were made ; and that it was scarce possible to know certainly whether our Hearts are changed , unless it appeared in our lives ; and the Repentance of most dying men , being like the howlings of condemned Prisoners for Pardon , which flowed from no sense of their Crimes , but from the horrour of approaching Death ; there was little reason to encourage any to hope much from such Sorrowing : Yet certainly if the Mind of a Sinner , even on a Death-Bed , be truly renewed and turned to God , so great is His Mercy , that He will receive him , even in that extremity . (BURNETROC-E3-H,148.189) He said , He was sure his Mind was entirely turned and though Horrour had given him his first awaking , yet that was now grown up into a setled Faith and Conversion . (BURNETROC-E3-H,148.190) There is but one prejudice lies against all this , to defeat the good Ends of Divine Providence by it upon others , as well as on himself : (BURNETROC-E3-H,148.191) and that is that it was a part of his Disease , and that the lowness of his Spirits made such an alteration in him , that he was not what he had formerly been : (BURNETROC-E3-H,149.192) and this some have carried so far as to say , That he died mad : (BURNETROC-E3-H,149.193) These Reports are raised by those who are unwilling that the last Thoughts or Words of a Person , every way so extraordinary , should have any effect either-2 on themselves or others : (BURNETROC-E3-H,149.194) And it is to be fear'd , that some may have so far feared their Consciences , and exceeded the common Measures of Sin and Infidelity , that neither this Testimony , nor one coming from the Dead , would signifie much towards their Conviction . (BURNETROC-E3-H,149.195) That this Lord was either mad or stupid , is a thing so notoriously untrue , that it is the greatest Impudence for any that were about him , to Report it ; and a very unreasonable Credulity in others to believe it . (BURNETROC-E3-H,150.196) All the while I was with him , after he had slept out the disorders of the Fit he was in the first Night , he was not only without Ravings ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,150.197) but had a clearness in his Thoughts , in his Memory , in his reflections on Things and Persons , far beyond what I ever saw in a Person so low in his strength . (BURNETROC-E3-H,150.198) He was not able to hold out long in Discourse , (BURNETROC-E3-H,150.199) for his Spirits failed : (BURNETROC-E3-H,150.200) but once for half an hour , and often for a quarter of an hour , after he awakened , he had a Vivacity in his Discourse that was extraordinary , and in all things like himself . (BURNETROC-E3-H,150.201) He called often for his Children , his Son the now Earl of Rochester , and his three Daughters , (BURNETROC-E3-H,151.202) and spake to them with a sense and feeling that $can $not {TEXT:cannot} be expressed in Writing . (BURNETROC-E3-H,151.203) He called me once to look on them all , (BURNETROC-E3-H,151.204) and said , See how Good God has been to me , in giving me so many Blessings , (BURNETROC-E3-H,151.205) and I have carried my self to Him like an ungracious and unthankful Dog . (BURNETROC-E3-H,151.206) He once talked a great deal to me of Publick Affairs , and of many Persons and things , with the same clearness of thought and expression , that he had ever done before . So that by no sign , but his Weakness of Body , and giving over Discourse so soon , could I perceive a difference between what his Parts formerly were , and what they were then . (BURNETROC-E3-H,151.207) And that wherein the presence of his Mind appeared most , was in the total change of an ill habit grown so much upon him , that he could hardly govern himself , when he was any ways heated , three Minutes without falling into it ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,152.208) I mean Swearing . (BURNETROC-E3-H,152.209) He had acknowledged to me the former Winter , that he abhorred it as a base and indecent thing , and had set himself much to break it off : (BURNETROC-E3-H,152.210) but he confessed that he was so over-power'd by that ill Custom , that he could not speak with any warmth , without repeated Oaths , which , upon any sort of provocation , came almost naturally from him : (BURNETROC-E3-H,152.211) But in his last Remorses this did so sensibly affect him , that by a resolute and constant watchfulness , the habit of it was perfectly master'd ; So that , upon the returns of pain which were very severe and frequent upon him , the last day I was with him ; or upon such Displeasures as people sick or in pain are apt to take of a sudden at those about them ; On all these Occasions he never swore an Oath all the while I was there . (BURNETROC-E3-H,153.212) Once he was offended with the delay of one that he thought made not hast enough , with somewhat he called for , (BURNETROC-E3-H,153.213) and said in a little heat , That damned Fellow : (BURNETROC-E3-H,153.214) Soon after I told him , I was glad to find his Style so reformed , and that he had so entirely overcome that ill habit of Swearing ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,153.215) Only that word of calling any damned , which had returned upon him , was not decent . (BURNETROC-E3-H,153.216) His Answer was : Oh that Language of Fiends , which was so familiar to me , hangs yet about me : (BURNETROC-E3-H,154.217) Sure none has deserved more to be damned than I have done . (BURNETROC-E3-H,154.218) And after he had humbly asked God Pardon for it , he desired me to call the Person to him , that he might ask him forgiveness : (BURNETROC-E3-H,154.219) but I told him that was needless (BURNETROC-E3-H,154.220) for he had said it of one that did not hear it , and so could not be offended by it . (BURNETROC-E3-H,154.221) In this disposition of Mind did he continue all the while I was with him , four days together ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,154.222) He was then brought so low that all hope of Recovery was gone . (BURNETROC-E3-H,154.223) Much purulent matter came from him with his Urine , which he passed always with some pain ; But one day with unexpressible torment : (BURNETROC-E3-H,154.224) Yet he bore it decently , without breaking out into Repinings , or impatient Complaints . (BURNETROC-E3-H,155.226) He imagined he had a Stone in his Passage , (BURNETROC-E3-H,155.227) but it being searched , none was found . (BURNETROC-E3-H,155.228) The whole substance of his Body was drained by the Ulcer , (BURNETROC-E3-H,155.229) and nothing was left but Skin and Bone : (BURNETROC-E3-H,155.230) and by lying much on his Back , the parts there began to mortifie . (BURNETROC-E3-H,155.231) But he had been formerly so low , that he seemed as much past all hopes of life as now ; which made him one Morning after a full and sweet Nights rest , procured by Laudanum , given him without his knowledge , to fancy it was an effort of Nature , and to begin to entertain some hopes of Recovery : (BURNETROC-E3-H,155.232) For he said , He felt himself perfectly well , and that he had nothing ailing him , but an extream weakness , which might go off in time : (BURNETROC-E3-H,156.233) and then he entertained me with the Scheme he had laid down for the rest of his life , how retired , how strict , and how studious he intended to be : (BURNETROC-E3-H,156.234) But this was soon over , (BURNETROC-E3-H,156.235) for he quickly felt that it was only the effect of a good sleep , and that he was still in a very desperate state . (BURNETROC-E3-H,156.236) I thought to have left him on Friday , (BURNETROC-E3-H,156.237) but not without some Passion , he desired me to stay that day : (BURNETROC-E3-H,156.238) there appeared no symptome of present death ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,156.239) and a Worthy Physitian then with him , told me , That though he was so low that an accident might carry him away on a suddain ; Yet without that , he thought he might live yet some Weeks . (BURNETROC-E3-H,157.240) So on Saturday , at Four of the Clock in the Morning I left him , being the 24th of July . (BURNETROC-E3-H,157.241) But I durst not take leave of him ; (BURNETROC-E3-H,157.242) for he had expressed so great an unwillingness to part with me the day before , that if I had not presently yielded to one days stay , it was like to have given him some trouble , (BURNETROC-E3-H,157.243) therefore I thought it better to leave him without any Formality . (BURNETROC-E3-H,157.244) Some hours after he asked for me , (BURNETROC-E3-H,157.245) and when it was told him , I was gone , he seem'd to be troubled , (BURNETROC-E3-H,157.246) and said , Has my friend left me , (BURNETROC-E3-H,157.247) then I shall die shortly . (BURNETROC-E3-H,157.248) After that he spake but once or twice till he died : (BURNETROC-E3-H,157.249) He lay much silent : (BURNETROC-E3-H,157.250) Once they heard him praying very devoutly . (BURNETROC-E3-H,157.251) And on Monday about Two of the Clock in the Morning , he died , without any Convulsion , or so much as a groan . (BURNETROC-E3-H,158.253)